• Sometimes a Sudden Yes Becomes a Lifetime Memory

    Aditi was done. Done with meetings that could have been emails. Done with deadlines that never really ended. Done with the corporate world’s constant pressure to keep optimizing herself just to stay relevant.

    She sat quietly on her bed, staring at the wall of her room for ten straight minutes. No music. No scrolling. Just silence and exhaustion.

    Then suddenly, almost impulsively, she picked up her phone and searched for trekking groups for a weekend trip.

    One random Instagram page appeared on her screen. She clicked on it without thinking much. There it was a weekend trek to Chandrashila.

    She had never even heard the name before.

    Aditi googled a little about it. Snow. Mountains. A temple called Tungnath Temple. Sunrise views. People calling it magical. Within the next twenty minutes, the tickets were booked.

    Only after booking them did the anxiety kick in.

    Thirty random strangers. A two-day trip. Mountains she had never seen before. But somehow, the plan was already made now.

    The day arrived.

    Aditi boarded a bus from Delhi late in the evening. When she reached the boarding point, people were already talking, laughing, adjusting backpacks, sharing snacks, introducing themselves like they had known each other forever.

    She quietly took the window seat and plugged in her earphones without playing anything.

    Still, during the journey, she ended up talking to a few people. Tiny conversations. Names, jobs, hometowns, “Is this your first trek?” type of conversations. Aditi was surprisingly good at small talk when needed. Not because she loved talking but because she knew how to make people feel comfortable.

    By the next morning, they had reached the base village. The mountains stood quietly in the background like giants watching everyone arrive. And suddenly, the city felt very far away.

    Trekking day arrived.

    The group gathered early in the morning. The weather had become unpredictable recently, and everyone had been warned about black ice on the route because of fresh snowfall and rain.

    Some experienced trekkers advised the group to rent spikes for their shoes. Aditi looked at her beginner-level trekking shoes and immediately rented a pair out of caution.

    The trek toward Tungnath Temple began.

    The pathway was made of stone trails laid in a zig-zag pattern across the mountains. On one side were deep valleys, on the other were forests dusted with snow. Cold mountain air hit her face sharply every time the wind blew.

    For the first hour, Aditi walked with full energy. Everything felt surreal.

    The mountains looked painted. The silence sounded different there. Cleaner somehow. But as they climbed higher, things started changing.

    The elevation increased. The oxygen levels dropped. Breathing became heavier. Her legs slowly began hurting. Snow started appearing on the sides of the path.

    And the climb became steeper.

    Still, with Shiva’s name constantly running in her head, she kept walking.

    Step by step. Breath by breath.

    Finally, after struggling through the last stretch, she reached Tungnath Temple, one of the highest Shiva temples in the world.

    The temple stood silently in the middle of snow-covered mountains as if it had existed before time itself.

    Aditi folded her hands.

    And for a moment, everything inside her became still.

    All the stress. All the overthinking. All the noise she carried from the city. Gone.

    She sat there for a while after darshan, eating something warm with the group. Everyone was exhausted. That was when the trek leaders informed them about the final climb to Chandrashila Summit.

    There was no proper path anymore. Only ice. Half the group immediately decided not to continue.

    Aditi looked at the route ahead and honestly felt relieved hearing people give up. Her legs were already trembling from exhaustion.

    “I think this is enough,” she thought to herself. “I can’t do more.”

    But a few fellow trekkers looked at her and said,
    “You’ve already come this far. We’ll help you. Don’t quit now.”

    Aditi stood there quietly for a few seconds. Then she looked once toward the summit. “Okay,” she said softly. “Let’s do this.”

    And my god, the final climb was brutal.

    The black ice made every single step dangerous. They had to first plant the trekking stick firmly into the ice and then carefully move one foot ahead. One wrong step could make someone slip.

    The spikes under their shoes scratched against the frozen surface with every movement.

    No one was talking much anymore.

    Everyone was just focused on surviving the climb.

    But the weather stayed kind. The sky was perfectly clear.

    And after what felt like forever, they finally reached the summit.

    Chandrashila Summit.

    Aditi stood there silently.

    There were ranges of mountains big, huge, surreal stretching endlessly in every direction. Snow-covered peaks stood so tall and still that they almost didn’t feel real. Clouds floated below parts of the valley while freezing winds brushed against her face.

    And suddenly, all her problems felt incredibly small.

    Not happy. Not sad. Just quiet.

    And somewhere between the ice, the exhaustion, the fear, the strangers who became companions, and the mountains that made her feel small in the most beautiful way possible…

    Aditi experienced life in a way she had never imagined.

    Say yes to the art you’ve always craved, the trip you’ve always postponed, the people you lost along the way, and pluck as many flowers as you can before life slips away.

  • The kind of love that stays

    “What are you trying to do? What are you hiding there?”

    From the doorway, Aditi noticed her mother slightly bent, fumbling with something behind her back, almost like a child caught in the act. There was an unusual haste in her movements, a quiet struggle she wasn’t meant to see.

    “No, no… nothing. You go from here,” her mother said quickly, brushing it off with a nervous smile. “I’m just doing my work.”

    Confused, Aditi didn’t insist. She turned away, unaware that something gentle and unseen was unfolding just for her.

    A little while later, as she walked past the room again, she paused.

    “Mom… what are you doing?”

    This time, there was a pause. A hesitation. And then, softly –

    “I was trying to give you a surprise… I wanted to decorate the room… the way your friends used to.”

    Aditi stood still.

    “This year you’re home,” her mother continued, her voice quieter now, almost shy. “I just wanted you to feel the same.”

    And there it was balloons scattered across the floor, a small pump in her mother’s hands, half-filled decorations waiting to become something beautiful.

    Aditi didn’t know what to say.

    Why?

    That question stayed with her, but the answer was already there in the effort, the thought, and the quiet love she had always felt.

    It turned out more beautiful than she could have imagined not because of how it looked, but because of what it carried.

    Because it wasn’t about balloons.

    It was about love that doesn’t age. The kind that stays just as enthusiastic when you turn one or twenty-five.

    It is this love that makes a house feel like home. Because home is never just a place.

    It is a feeling –
    of being thought of,
    of being celebrated,
    of being loved in ways you didn’t expect.

    And sometimes,
    the most beautiful moments are the ones you never saw coming.

  • Kashi: An Experience

    “Drink it before it gets cold,” Anjali said, passing Aditi a hot cup of tea as the train moved towards home.

    “Yes!” Aditi replied.

    She took a slow sip and looked out of the window. The warmth of the tea stayed in her hands while her thoughts travelled back to the moment this trip almost didn’t happen.

    “I tried everything. I’m not getting any tickets,” Aditi had said, staring at her phone, slowly losing hope. It felt like this trip like many others was not meant to happen.

    “Maybe we should drop the plan,” Anjali said quietly. “We’ll go there next vacation, when it’s meant to happen.”

    They refreshed the booking page again and again. Then they stopped trying. It felt pointless to hope.

    Almost.

    Then the Tatkal window opened. Two tickets appeared on the screen before doubt could return.

    A small smile crossed Aditi’s face as she sat in the train now. That excitement had kept her awake the entire night. Travelling with her childhood friend felt unreal like something she had waited for without knowing.

    The next morning, they boarded the train and reached Kashi, one of the oldest cities in the world.

    As they stepped out of the railway station, Aditi noticed narrow lanes, heavy traffic, loud honking, and rickshaws moving in every direction.

    Is this Banaras I had heard about? she wondered.
    The first impression of the city quietly killed her excitement.


    Day One

    Early in the morning, filled with quiet excitement, they reached Assi Ghat and stepped down towards the river.

    A cool breeze brushed past them. The water was cold, and the sand beneath their feet felt damp and cool. Some people sat silently on ghat with newspapers in their hands, untouched by their phones. Others paused to capture small moments on their cameras. No one seemed in a hurry.

    On one side of the ghat stood temples and old stone structures, rising above long steps. On the other side flowed the River Ganga – steady and calm. Temple bells rang softly. Priests chanted mantras that floated through the air. The ghats felt alive, yet peaceful, as if the city was breathing slowly.

    The river was dotted with small and big colourful boats, moving gently with the water. The scene felt unreal – like something she had seen in bollywood movies, now coming alive in front of her.

    Kashi is called “Shiv ki Nagri”, “the City of Shiva”. Not only because of history, but because his presence is felt everywhere. His name was carved on walls, whispered in prayers, and painted by artists imagining his form. It felt impossible to walk without being reminded of him.

    They walked from one ghat to another. Every few hundred metres, everything changed – the temples, the walls, the statues. Every lane seemed to carry a story. Every temple felt like it held a quiet meaning. A boatman they met spoke of old times stories, as if the river had told him everything.

    As the sun slowly began to set, the air felt different. It was time for Ganga Aarti.

    Priests dressed in pink kurtas and dhotis stood in a line. Their movements were slow and in perfect rhythm. Lamps rose and fell, bells rang together, and chants filled the space. It felt less like a ritual and more like a moment the city had been repeating for centuries.

    Aditi stood there quietly, watching, touched by a feeling she had never known before.

    They ended the day on a positive note, with tired feet and a settled heart.


    Day Two

    At 4 a.m., they stepped out of their hotel and reached Kashi Vishwanath Temple.

    Even at that hour, the line was long. They waited patiently, moving forward step by step. For Aditi, this was her first visit to a Jyotirling temple. She felt curious not restless, just quietly aware that she was standing somewhere deeply important.

    They stood in long lines, waiting patiently. Inside the temple, something shifted within Aditi. The bells rang close to her ears. The chants filled the space. Prayers echoed from every direction. Everything entered her senses, but what stayed was a strong, unfamiliar energy.

    After taking blessings, they walked through the back of the temple premises. Just next to it was Manikarnika Ghat – Kashi’s most sacred cremation ground. 

    They sat quietly at a distance, facing the ghat.

    The pyres were burning, lighting up the darkness. It was a sight never seen before. A feeling never felt before. Watching the flames rise and fall, the mind slowly fell silent.

    Did our daily problems really matter anymore?


    The ego people carry.
    The attachments they struggle to let go of.
    The plans that didn’t go as expected.
    The things chased for so long.

    Did it really matter?

    Everything in that moment felt small. The doubts, the noise, the unanswered questions none of it felt heavy anymore.

    What truly matters are people, happiness, and kindness. Kashi makes you humble in a quiet, unexpected way.

    The trip came to an end, but something stayed behind. As they say, you don’t go to Kashi, Kashi calls you.

    Har Har Mahadev!

  • Saudade of You

    The music was loud enough to blur thoughts, yet somehow not loud enough to silence them.

    It was New Year’s Eve.

    Aditi stood near the window, a glass in her hand, looking outside. Reflections moved across the room. A cold wind suddenly brushed her face, and she felt something.

    A familiar feeling. A nostalgic one.

    She closed her eyes, and a sudden flashback appeared before her. She sensed it in her bones. It felt like a memory that hadn’t decided whether it wanted to be remembered.

    She inhaled slowly, as if the air had thickened. Her chest tightened not with pain, not with joy, but with recognition.

    It reminded her of moments when she had felt understood without trying. When pauses felt safe instead of awkward.

    Aditi put her hand on her chest, trying to calm her racing heart. She closed her eyes, letting the feeling pass through her instead of resisting it. When she opened them, the feeling softened but didn’t disappear.

    Someone touched her arm and said her name twice before she responded.

    She hoped it was him. The prayer played too loudly in her mind – a quiet wish to see him again.

    She turned, but this time a familiar face did not make her happy.

    “You okay?” her friend asked.

    “Yeah,” she said. “Just… give me a second.”

    She gathered herself and looked up at the sky. He wasn’t around her. He would never come back. Some people leave the world too soon.

    She returned inside and rejoined the noise, the laughter, the counting down of time.

    Three. Two. One….

    “Happy New Year!”

    Aditi laughed, a little forced.

    He might not be here with her anymore, but the feeling she carried would always remain.

    Because some feelings stay, even when the person is no longer here.


    That is Saudade.